To destroy, rebuild, repair, improve, and to destroy himself again is the nature of his existence. The ending of the next cycle is always much worse. He dreadfully awaits his impending doom in a solitary disquiet. The loss of control of his limbs, the burning stab of humiliating realizations will puncture him to his core,… Read More Disquiet I
Whether he uses alcohol or any kind of drug as a means to escape from his mental-emotional torment it actually worsens his state and instead sends him into a somber state of apathey and nihilism. He feels his life slowly shut down, like an old television, and this all-consuming feeling, The Vacuum, devours all other… Read More Existential Crisis
Seeing my reflection in you made me want to change myself for the better.
Whenever something happens in his life that he feels is good it places it’s phantom hands on his shoulders and whispers into his ear, “Tell me, what is the point? You’re going to die anyway”. The pleasant feeling he has then fades away quickly as if it never existed. As if it has been cast… Read More Phantom
“I love him who has a free spirit and a free heart: thus his head is only the entrails of his heart; but his heart drives him to go under.” – Excerpt from ‘Thus Spoke Zarathustra’ by Friedrich Nietzsche
He walks through the valley in darkness. It’s quite lovely. The moon is giving off a lot of light tonight. Ah, how he patiently waits for this time of day. No other humans in sight. No human noises besides his breathing, walking and the gentle beating of his heart. And that’s just fine. It seems… Read More Solace In The Dark
He has walked into oblivion so that he can face desolation. He will willingly let himself be destroyed so that he can become something more than just an average human being. He will conceive what it is like to be left astray, but with his own intent. They will think he’s mad but what they… Read More Deconstruction